Why did you try to grip reality so hard in the first place?
Did you think you could hold it forever?
Did you think you were a God or something?
You asked me why I was being so cruel as you prepared
crocodile tears when I asked why would you lie
about putting the money I sent you in my gas tank.

Did you think I wouldn’t notice it was empty?

I was straining so hard to keep everything afloat before,
I probably wouldn’t have noticed then.

Putting extra gas in the tank isn’t a big deal,
when you think the boat is sinking and you
gotta get to shore as fast as you can.

But when I saw that you were the one unplugging the leak,
while you were supposed to be on lookout –
I realized we had been spinning in circles,
half sunk for years.

That’s when I remembered I knew how to swim.

Did you think I would forget that?
Did you think I would rather spend my life trying to save you by sinking with you,
That I was afraid to swim alone,
because I’d been left behind before?

If you had just told me you never learned to swim,
we could have remembered together.
But you let me believe I was drowning so many times,
And now you lost the plug and it’s sinking.

And though I may be too tired to swim right now,
I can look at the pink clouds while doing the back float.
And you can keep telling yourself you were dealt a bad boat as it sinks.

After all this time you still lie through your teeth. You said I was your only friend, but I don’t even know who I would be calling a friend anymore.
you said “fine you win!”
and I realized we were in very different games because I just wanted someone to play with.